Momentary lapse of reason, as Pink Floyd would say.
Yes, it has got to be that. Or else, knowing how I feel now, why would I have said yes 5-6 months ago? It was an opportunity that presented itself and we took it – we here is the collective family decision. I still believe we based our decision on right priorities for the family rather than me or my own career. It is just icing on the cake that I will also be working on something different and challenging and definitely something that I can spectacularly screw up and fail miserably.
We are the cusp of change. In about 4 hours we would have left our house of 2+ years, city of several years and importantly comfort zone of a lifetime. Everything in this zone was fine and good; but we needed to get the next inflection for our topmost priority. So we are taking a chance. We will be in a
Its not that we have not done this before; a couple of times and at the end of it, we were back at our comfort zone. The previous sojourns always seemed easier – just packed our bags, locked our doors and left. This time, it is elaborate – not sure why – I think with age and time, comes cob-webs that anchors firmly to the ground. It seems that there are million things that needed to be taken care of before we leave. It is also a function of our own experience and our own assessment of risking something, I guess. On the other side of the (global) village, I’m not sure what lies ahead – would our decision get vindicated? Would there be that exponential improvement that we are banking on and are expecting? Would my work, the primary vehicle for what we want to do, be that bit more challenging than what I can handle? Don’t know – the air of uncertain future is apprehensive; and the thought that we are moving from a nice and cozy comfort makes it a bit tougher and raises the apprehension higher.
In any case, the deed is done and we are committed. With a transcontinental hop across the big pond and hope, we are taking that leap of faith. I believe that umbilical chord to that faith would not snap.
Perhaps its Grateful Dead that I should be quoting – “We will get by, we will survive”…
Penny for my thoughts? Thank you – please make it a small change!!